MOBethyst

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About MOBethyst

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  • Birthday 03/12/1996

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  • Interests Wrestling, Sports, Women, Video Games

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  1. Tinashe

    I felt very underwhelmed by it, but I liked it. Comparing to the hype from 2 years ago, the album feels so much different from what it was originally going to be. I guess this is what happens when things change and RCA does some fuckery with it being delayed so much. I still love every track on the album, but whoever was in charge of putting the creaking noises in Ooh La La needs to get the fuck out. That part brings down the quality of a great song. 
  2. General Gaming

    90% of my gaming now is fighting games, RPG's, and Fortnite.   I don't regret any of it. 
  3. Final Fantasy

    FF8 gets a lot of hate, but it's actually not a bad game at all. It's got an amazing soundtrack, good characters, and a decent story.   Eyes On Me was probably the most powerful moment in that game for me, along with Laguna finding Ellone as Adel was chasing after her.    Squall's an alright protagonist. He's a confusing character at first, and is okay-ish in terms of actual character development, but he grew on me. That, and the way he portrays himself is how I used to portray myself, for similar reasons being that I wanted to protect myself from emotional and mental pain that happened to me. He gets better as the game goes on. 
  4. HB Rants and Struggles - A Venting Thread

    I'm pretty much 90% over her now. My feelings for the girl made me hold back on a lot of the stuff I didn't like about her (same with her actions), but now, I'll tell it how I feel.  After talking with her a few months, everything that happened was merely... a misunderstanding, I guess? When I asked about the flirting, etc. she told me that all of it wasn't what I thought it was, it was just her way of being comfortable around me. Also, when she asked me what I saw her as, she told me that it was because she knew I liked her, and was basically using it as a way to let me down because she just wants to see people right now, and wants nothing serious. Also, at the time, she was seeing a guy late into the semester when the juicier bits started happening, and she mentioned that she was texting him when she asked me all of it. She's been really truthful to me, but I'm still left really confused but I won't look far into it. I know what was said over all the phone calls, and all the texts we had. Hell, she even damn near sat on my lap once when I was messing with her, and there were witnesses to that. She told me she didn't have any of those feelings, so I guess it was just me misinterpreting what she was doing, and me just catching feelings for her.  I'm a bit skeptical of what she said because of what I said before with the texting and flirting (I guess) over the phone, so I don't really know. But, I'm not going to go deep into this because my feelings are fading.    She just, has issues too, and as do I. Maybe it's just another case of unrequited feelings for me, or whatever.  I just, don't know what I want now, after all of that. Maybe I'll just see other people and see how it goes from there, maybe I'll sleep around because I just... don't care anymore? I have feelings, but after this, and the fact that I'm still healing from my past relationships, I just don't know anymore. It would be nice to have someone, you know. 
  5. Final Fantasy

    FFX/X-2 FFVII FFIX That's my top 3. I've played VIII (good game), XIII (hated it) and XV too, but I can't really decide where to put them.   I hated everything about XIII and Lightning though, what a shitty protagonist and unlikeable cast.    I'm in the middle of FFVI right now. My, my, Kefka is a marvelous villain.
  6. HB Rants and Struggles - A Venting Thread

    Well, she knows I like her, but I haven't told her that I'm really starting to like her more. As of right now, I'm pretty much just continuing to be friends with her at this point and waiting. Ideally, I want it to happen naturally because I don't want to just rush into it. I don't know if me telling her would change her mind, though. I just want her to be ready when she really is. 
  7. HB Rants and Struggles - A Venting Thread

    Yeah, I do. I've slowly started to really fall for her. I don't know how damaged she is from her last relationship, but I do know that she is over her ex. I just don't know what the root of her not being able to commit to anything right now is. I'm just, confused and stuck, really.
  8. Random Thoughts

    It's been quite some time. 
  9. HB Rants and Struggles - A Venting Thread

    I think she might be a little insecure. I compliment her sometimes and when she asks me what to do with her hair or makeup, I compliment her there too. She says she looks average at best, but I just don't see it myself. I treat her the same way as I have before I found out she liked me, just a little less flirty with her since I'm trying to respect her decision she told me right now. We're still very playful when we talk, but I just can't do anything else. I do care about her, too. She makes my day better, I enjoy being around her, I just am hoping this works out. I've told her things I haven't even told some of my closest friends, so I put myself in a vulnerable state around her too. I've always offered myself out to her if she wants to talk about anything sensitive to her, and earlier on when she's been upset and asks me not to joke around, I stop and try to console her. 
  10. HB Rants and Struggles - A Venting Thread

    Apart from school kicking my ass and giving me depression/anxiety...   My luck with women, lord..   I met a girl back in September at my school's FGC club. Basically, it's a club for fighting games, and we met because we both play Tekken. We talked for a bit after a few sessions and eventually became friends. She friended me on Facebook and we started talking from there. Now, I always thought she was really cute, but I immediately wrote myself out because: A. I want to get good, not get a girlfriend, and B. There's no way I'd end up with a girl like that. We started talking and getting close and I felt closer to her as a friend, but I still had no feelings for her because of what I said above. Over the course of getting to know her, I learned that she cosplays, she plays video games (well, obviously), she's a huge nerd, meaning she's totally my type.    One weekly session around Halloween, she showed up in a cosplay of my Tekken main: Josie. I was playing a match with a guy there and she showed up behind me quoting my character, and I turned around and saw it. I didn't know what to do with myself because I liked it and because she's literally right in front of me, dressed up as my favorite character. I really thought nothing of it. I get closer to her and she starts telling me how several guys there at the club have tried to slide in her DM's and take her out on dates, and she tells me how she doesn't like that and prefers that guys get to know her before doing all of that. She also told me about how she's only had one boyfriend and that he did her dirty, and that she isn't ready to commit to any type of relationship right now, dates for her are nothing serious. I still think nothing of this, because I'm talking to her on a friendship level and getting to know her as a person. We had gone out to a ramen place already for food because she invited me, but I really didn't consider that a date.    Over time, we started to get closer. Now, we're comfortable with each other and starting to joke around with each other. She started calling me a thot, so I called her that back jokingly because of it. She changed my nickname to something jokingly to mess with me, and so did I. She also set the chat emoji to a winky face. We talk daily anyway, so I think nothing of this and just run along with everything since that's how we act anyway. There was a night where I was up late doing an assignment and I forgot to reply to her, so I did and she said "Oh, look at you sliding into my DM's this late at night" and I just went along with what she said after jokingly. Even in public around our friend group, we would call each other thot and joke around with each other. There's also one thing that she does that she knows will trigger me: touching buttons on my backpack that I tell people not to touch. She does that, even when my bag is straight up on my back, and I'm here grabbing her arms trying to stop her.   Then, I started noticing she was blatantly flirting with me over texts. Calling me a cutie (which caught me off guard because I didn't suspect anything) one time, asking to hang out with me every so often, and talk to me every day. There were times that she's called me while I was in the library studying or at home and we'd talk for hours. She came over to my house a couple of times when my roommates weren't there to play Tekken with me. I started to question whether or not she had interest, but I recently learned that I'm dense and didn't really notice that much. At the same time, I started to kind of like her.    I talked with some of my friends and my roommates about all the stuff she's done and our interactions, and they all said that it's obvious she likes me and I'm dense as hell. The times that my roommates saw her over at my house and in my room, they knew. My friend group saw our interactions and already knew too. They said it was so obvious she liked me, and that she practically was clinging onto me when we're both over there since she always sat next to me, and talked with me. Last Friday, I went to my therapist and told her all the things above, and even she said the same thing. So on that same day, I walked her to work since she asked me to "talk" and walk with her and she asked me "So what do you see me as?" I hesitantly said a good friend, but said I'd like to date her. She repeated the commitment thing she said and I acknowledged it, but asked her if she's been flirting with me and if she liked me. She started nevous smiling and laughing, texting one of her friends, who I assume she was talking to about me and what to do.    I want this to work out for me, because she's a good thing in my life. She makes me happy, I enjoy being around her, and she's a good girl. But, because of the whole commitment issue she's having right now and not being ready, she said it's best that we remain as friends. She told me if she would've committed to anything, she would've disappeared on me. It's not that I don't know what to do, it's just I'm caught up in this. I like her, and those feelings are escalating for me, but I can't do anything but wait. I won't treat her any differently than I do now and we still talk everyday, and as we normally do, but it just sucks. I can't act on my feelings and ask her to date me. I want to take her out on a date regardless, because it's something I want to do with her, and I don't care if it's not serious to her or not.    I just don't understand how she likes me, and says she isn't ready to commit. I don't know the exact reason why she isn't ready to commit to anything, but it's one thing I'm thinking about because I want a relationship with her to come out of this. I don't know how I managed to get a girl like this, someone my type and just like me, yet I just have to wait and see what happens. Who knows if she'll still like me when she's ready? I don't think I'll meet a girl like this ever again, let alone get one to like me again.   I'm super insecure and unhappy in certain aspects of my life, which is why I seeked out therapy, and that's why I'm having those last thoughts. When I like a girl, I start to fall hard, and it consumes me.    Just my luck, right? 
  11. HB Rants and Struggles - A Venting Thread

    Ever since last year, I've just been so unhappy with myself. After losing being an RA, something that I cared about, I just put myself in such a dark place. Going through that next semester, I overloaded myself on credits and didn't help my case at all, making everything to me so somber. The negative thoughts about myself have gotten worse and worse over the years and it began to affect me in doing the things that I love and in school. After putting myself in a toxic relationship and experiencing two people ghosting me, those have made it worse for myself. I'm not happy with myself, physically, emotionally and skill-wise. There were times that I've gotten so sad to where I can't even do anything but sit there and drown myself in the sadness. I dealt with all of this by playing video games, something I've always loved, saw it as an escape from the reality of what's happening to myself and my insecurities. I didn't know where to stop because of my lack of time management and it started killing my grades and my happiness as a result of the low grades.    I've had many moments this year where I've been at my happiness, those being playing games, competing in social events for one of my student organizations, and just being around my friends, but it still isn't enough to help me. Recently, it's gotten to the point where I started using alcohol as a means of escaping it. Normally, I'd never do that and use it socially with my friends, but being under the influence made me forget about all the troubles I had with myself - and I liked that. Only later did I realize how bad it was for me to deal with it in this way when friends of mine online started becoming concerned with my drinking habits. That was where I realized it's gotten worse for myself and I've been dealing with it in the wrong ways. I checked myself into student counseling to hopefully help myself feel better and have only done about two sessions. I still don't know where this will take me but I just hope it will help me feel happier about myself again.   I don't know what's wrong with me, but I hope this will help me find out. Depression runs in my family, and only recently did I find this out. I've never had thoughts of self-harm, suicide, or harming anyone else, but it's something that I'm still wary of. Right now, I still feel I'm not alright yet. 
  12. Tinashe performing at Wrestlemania.

    I had to log in to Proboards to change my master password because of Cloudflare's huge leak incident and happened to see all of the old forums I've been on. I looked at it and saw that people actually still posted on it, which was weird to me. So I looked at it and posted bullshit too. Also, this was maybe a few weeks ago, to which I hadn't logged into Proboards or it in over a year.   But that's unrelated to this topic. 
  13. Tinashe performing at Wrestlemania.

    Yes, I knew this. Whatever she does, I'm happy about it. 
  14. Kurt Angle to be inducted into the HoF

    And I think this JUST got me to watch WWE consistently again. I fucking love Kurt.